I am so tired of this feeling of whatever I have. It could be the constant rain/wind we've been enduring for the past ten days, that coupled with the battle of the wits here in my house.
I need Springtime, I need summer...I need a deserted island to land myself on.
I'm reading "Codependent No More" Not a great novel or anything escape worthy, but it may give me insight to what is happening in my mind. Maybe it will even help me fix myself.
I wasted my day off today. Went to the doctor to get my blood pressure checked. It was in normal range but high still. I'm on medication for it, so I don't what to say about it. Have to go back in June for the 4 points too high cholesterol count. Whatever. At this point I just throw my hands up. There are people out there with worse problems. When I came home I fell asleep in my chair, in my cocoon (What I now call my bedroom)
OD just wanted to fight with me, because I wouldn't fight with MD. I don't want to fight with anyone. GET IT? She didn't get it. She left instead. It's quiet here now. MD is asleep in her room, because she has to work the graveyard shift. YD is here taking a shower to get ready for her class tonight or is it class tomorrow? Tonight...I think. Wanna get in my face girl (OD) is out with friends or something. She left claiming she would never talk to me again. DRAMA QUEEN!
Who wants to bet she'll be home before midnight? (I do, I do!)
Sorry, I am rambling, incoherent...that's just how I feel. Someday, I may get it back together.
I think I will go back to my cocoon and crochet for a while. I can get lost in that easily enough!
Thanks for listening.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Jealous Much?
I got a couple of requests to update. I know I have been fairly quiet. It's hard to put to paper(?) the stuff I am going through right now. My life is all jumbled up. I just don't want to get started on my pity pot. And...things just aren't settled yet, so I don't even know WHAT to say. Um...around the 28th of February things will be completely changed so I should have something really great to say right about then...sorry...I don't want to jinx things!
As for jealous much...
I just did my taxes and it's all said and done, sent in, all the "i's" are crossed and my "t's" dotted. I get a refund...YaY!!! The IRS doesn't start processing until tomorrow, so I'll be first in line!
As for jealous much...
I just did my taxes and it's all said and done, sent in, all the "i's" are crossed and my "t's" dotted. I get a refund...YaY!!! The IRS doesn't start processing until tomorrow, so I'll be first in line!
Friday, January 01, 2010
Happy New Year!
I went to bed early last night, around 9-ish. I figured that the new year had plenty of chaparones to usher it in without my help. Plus I was tired. Plus I had to get up at OhGawd O'Clock to go to work this morning.
I watched a little TV, and then fell into a nice comfy, warm, dreamy sleep. At straight up 11:58 the neighbors let off a few M-80's. At 11:59 they let off a few more. (You know, just in case someone didn't hear the first ones) At midnight the floodgates of boomers opened. I am so glad that I let others usher in this brand new year!
But you know? I woke up a half hour before my alarm. I feel rested, and ready to tackle my day. I will probably fall asleep at work. I don't know many people who are going to be coming in to buy new hammers to build things today. Correct me if I am wrong, but the pounding of hammers on New Years Day? Not something I think is a good mix. Nor that neat sound you get when you turn on a drill. Hardware is noisy, I am thinking there should be lots of quiet going on today.
I hope your day is wonderful!
I watched a little TV, and then fell into a nice comfy, warm, dreamy sleep. At straight up 11:58 the neighbors let off a few M-80's. At 11:59 they let off a few more. (You know, just in case someone didn't hear the first ones) At midnight the floodgates of boomers opened. I am so glad that I let others usher in this brand new year!
But you know? I woke up a half hour before my alarm. I feel rested, and ready to tackle my day. I will probably fall asleep at work. I don't know many people who are going to be coming in to buy new hammers to build things today. Correct me if I am wrong, but the pounding of hammers on New Years Day? Not something I think is a good mix. Nor that neat sound you get when you turn on a drill. Hardware is noisy, I am thinking there should be lots of quiet going on today.
I hope your day is wonderful!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
They Pulled It Off
OD and YD pulled Christmas off for me. I had next to nothing to give, not enough money to really do anything with and yet, we all banded together at their urgings and managed to get something for each of us from each of us. It was just fun to see what we came up with.
We had dinner at my dad's house with him and his girlfriend. She is a wonderful woman. She cooks the simplest foods and yet it feels gourmet. I am glad we got to spend that time with them.
Unfortunately, at dinner my dad was asking how everything was going. And how MD is and where she is. (Of course, she was glaringly absent from the table) I don't like lying to him, but telling him the truth about where MD was is not something I want to bring up at Christmas dinner. So I told him she had to work. In actuality, she has moved. It was not a fun move for either of us.
I have hope for the New Year. I hope I get better. I hope MD gets better...really better. I hope she learns about real life and what she needs to do to make it a good life. I hope I can get my house and home back to where it should be.
I know YD and OD will help me pull that off too.
My wish is that all of you have the best New Year possible and that we can continue our Bloggy Internet friendships throughout the year!
CHEERS!
We had dinner at my dad's house with him and his girlfriend. She is a wonderful woman. She cooks the simplest foods and yet it feels gourmet. I am glad we got to spend that time with them.
Unfortunately, at dinner my dad was asking how everything was going. And how MD is and where she is. (Of course, she was glaringly absent from the table) I don't like lying to him, but telling him the truth about where MD was is not something I want to bring up at Christmas dinner. So I told him she had to work. In actuality, she has moved. It was not a fun move for either of us.
I have hope for the New Year. I hope I get better. I hope MD gets better...really better. I hope she learns about real life and what she needs to do to make it a good life. I hope I can get my house and home back to where it should be.
I know YD and OD will help me pull that off too.
My wish is that all of you have the best New Year possible and that we can continue our Bloggy Internet friendships throughout the year!
CHEERS!
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