I need some direction. I can get all kind of things accomplished. In my head. Physically, not so much. I know what I want to do, I know what should be done. I just don't want to . That includes my sewing room. I can't get my brain around it. I think it is because it IS so very overwhelming. I know, I know. Make little one inch bites out of it and take a bite at a time. Which bite goes first???
I played hooky from work Sunday. Twisted my ankle and stayed home with my foot elevated. I did manage to scrub the dickens out of the refrigerator, and thrown out some unidentifiable items. I am sure that they were food at one time. So I'm good on the fridge front. Freezer goes next week.
Yesterday my oldest daughter and I went out kayaking. It was a gift she gave me for Christmas. She got a good deal through Amazon and since I love to kayak, she did that for me. Then we went out to lunch. We shared everything. Shrimp salad, Fish and Chips, and a beautiful slice of cheesecake with fresh blueberries on top. We were both stuffed. I can't imagine what would have happened if we hadn't shared. Oh yeah! The to die for appetizer...garlic deep fried artichoke hearts. O.M.G!!! My mouth is watering now. Next time I will remember pictures.
I joined WeightWatchers again last week. Lost 2.4 pounds! Yea! And that was eating that cheesecake too! And fried foods! And no, I won't be doing that all the time. My goal is to become healthy, not skinny and fat fried! LOL!
I talked to my psychologist today. He is helping me get through the mire that is living with my Dad. I really need this guy in my life. He is helping me immensely. I confess stuff to him like...I pulled a wire in my Dad's truck so he couldn't drive. I immediately called my sister and told her because I felt so guilty being devious. She laughed and said she was going to tell my BIL. I am doing this for my Dad's safety ad the public's safety. Dad should not be driving, but doesn't feel the same as the rest of us. Dr. Scot told me to not worry about it. I still do, but I am sure after a few days of my affirmations I will get over it.
He also gives me tips on how to talk to a belligerent ninety year old. There are things I want to tell my Dad, but I don't want to hurt his feelings. Like: You have to wear your hearing aids for the rest of us! (Dad thinks we should just magically hear him) I don't want to hurt him by telling him what he needs to do. After all, he has gotten this far in life without my help. He will not admit that he is failing physically, maybe he doesn't want to face the inevitable. My telling him these things hurts, I am sure. What if I hurt his feelings and then he passes? I could not live with myself if that happened!
After I had my appointment with Dr. Scot, I went grocery shopping. I bought lots of fruits and vegetables. Yummy stuff. Strawberries that are to die for. I know. I ate a couple while I was cleaning them, and cantaloupe. Those will be my go to-s when I am craving something sweet. I am determined to lose the weight I need to and get in shape.
Some pics I had that make me happy. That is a surprise passion flower. LOVE them!
This is Peepers (red hen) and Dela (white hen) my girls..two eggs a day!
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When I have days like this (or is that weeks?), I have my hubby give me a hug and pat my shoulder and say, "There, there. There, there." It feels so good. It's what my mom would do when I was little.
Your day out sounds great! Perhaps the kayaking helped offset all the yummy food! Well done on the weight loss! I tackled the kids playroom one toy drawer at a time and now it's empty and ready for my cabinet and sewing table! Yay!
What an awesome day!! The food sounds delightful! Hang in there with everything else...my grandma used to say 'you will get many stars in heaven' for the sacrifices you are making to help your dad. And I would have taken the wire out of the car too!!!
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