I am May

Kim-D
tagged me, saying if I wanted to do this I could:

Rules:
1. Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them
2. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months.
3. Pick your month of birth.
4. Highlight the traits that apply to you.
5. Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving a comment for them.
6. Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve done it!

And...it was a good lesson in computer literacy! I learned some stuff too Kim!


JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. (Well, four of them) Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Okay, now, I bolded and italicized "easily angered", because just this morning, before I had even had a full cup of coffee, I was easily angered. My middle dtr had a little party in her room. It's a separate building in my backyard. No problem. They were being as responsible as 21 y/o's can be I guess. This morning, when she figured she had been sober long enough to drive, she took her friends home. Well, two of the three that were there. The third one (a guy) came in the house after she had gotten back from her little trip. I made some comment to my other dtr's boyfriend about how Bec's needs to learn whose house this is. And then shut my mouth. Well, the guy was sitting in my german shepherd's fav chair, so the dogs were kind of dancing around the chair and the shepherd was trying to rub the guy off the chair ( my shepherd is passive aggressive, but mostly passive) and the idiot starting HITTING my dog!!!!! Then he KICKED him!!!! So, I said to the guy (Oh fairly loudly) Hey, hey, hey! Don't you hit my dog! And I went out to my dtr's room and told her to get her (bleep) in the house and tell the guy to get out. She wouldn't, that made me more mad, so I came back in and yelled at him something about being an idiot and getting out of my house now. And Mr. DUH, says to me, I'm not an idiot. Well, that just unleashed another several swear words from my mouth and explaining just exactly what an idiot is..."If you go into someone else's house, and hit and/or kick their dog(s)...that makes you an idiot. GET OUT!" So he did, but he slammed my door really, really hard.
I know I have never been an angel. And in the past, I have helped fools like him, but why in God's name am I being inundated with people like this now? Geez! I need to buy an island and go move on it, so I can be...alone...naw, not really.

OMGosh!

Work was so much fun today! NOT!!! I went in at 7am. Which means I really left my house at 6am. Stopped at Starbucks to load up on the good stuff for my fun drive. It was blowing up to 70 MPH and the rain was coming down in buckets. The first part of my trip was on the highway that goes through a eucalyptis grove and it's hillside on one side cliff on the other. The " eucys" had shed leaves, bark and their seeds all over the road. It is a treacherous place to drive and a tree can come down at any time. But what do I think??? I think, WOW, it really smells good here!

The power was on when I left home, but as I was driving into the city where I work I can see flashes of light in the sky and then the lights around me blinked out. YAY! I still have to work, we are the only hardware gig in town. Lights came right back on, then I see flashes two more times, the lights went on and off two more times. (in about a five minute period) What I was witnessing was the transformers blowing up all over town. We eventually had permanent lights out around 10am at work. That just means lots of work. Cause every one in town needs batteries, tarps boots, kerosene, etc. Cause you know we were told about this storm for the last three days and we have a tendency not to believe our weather people here. They lie a lot. So, they are telling us that there will be no lights at least the rest of today and all of tomorrow. Some even said Sunday.
My boss let me go home early, cause the road I drive is really, really scary in the best of weather. (A 400 foot drop into the Pacific Ocean in some places.) I came home and luckily the local gas station was open for business "if" you wanted premium gas. They ran out of everything else cause they were the only gas gig in town here. I want any gas, this is not a time to be out of it. I have batteries for my little punk TV just in case, and I got garbage bags. Well, ya never know, I just want to be prepared. They could be my new fashion statement.
The power was on at my house, although it was out for a good part of the day. My daughter tried to learn how to make coffee the hobo way, but said it was disgusting. I will have to teach her that someday. I hope you are all well. I am feeling a little better now that I have made a decision to not let someone else be my priority while I am just their...oh gosh what is that Kim-D????? Option? And thank you for that quote...it somehow fits right now.

No silver linings today.

Just the dark clouds.

I'm done. I am not talking about it anymore. I can't even think about her anymore. She has decided to rake me over the coals. She doesn't even realize what went on and what I was thinking. I apparently have been using her since she was thirteen. She is out there with all her little gangster want to be friends, complaining about me and telling her side of the story and they are only going to agree with her.

I am putting her stuff in the garage and when she comes to get it, she can only go that far. I am not going to put my heart out there for her to trample on any more. She's already broken it. I know, I know, you are all saying she will come around someday. I won't wait. I'm not going to hope. That's it.

Dozer

I got a call today from a friend of Binks that is helping her place her beloved dog Dozer with a new family. I can't imagine her giving up that dog, but this is what her friend tells me. She can't have the dog in the place where she will be staying. The friend is a rescue person, who places animals out of the kindness of her heart. She (the friend) called me today during a New Year's brunch that my other two girls and I fixed. Of course, that upset my applecart! She wanted to see if I knew of anyone who could keep the dog until Friday. She can't take the dog to his new home until then. I told her I knew of no one. Since I really think she wanted me to say that I would take him, I told her that under the circumstances, I would not be getting in the middle of anything that she was doing for Binks, since Binks did not seem to like me much right now. She thanked me anyway and that was the end of the conversation.
It welled up feelings in me. One was relief, that Binks won't be sleeping in her truck on the streets anymore and another was anger that she once again is giving up something she dearly loves because she is so flippin' stubborn. Well, it's another shovel full towards digging that hole she is going to find herself at the bottom of.