Wednesday, January 02, 2008

No silver linings today.

Just the dark clouds.

I'm done. I am not talking about it anymore. I can't even think about her anymore. She has decided to rake me over the coals. She doesn't even realize what went on and what I was thinking. I apparently have been using her since she was thirteen. She is out there with all her little gangster want to be friends, complaining about me and telling her side of the story and they are only going to agree with her.

I am putting her stuff in the garage and when she comes to get it, she can only go that far. I am not going to put my heart out there for her to trample on any more. She's already broken it. I know, I know, you are all saying she will come around someday. I won't wait. I'm not going to hope. That's it.

5 comments:

kim-d said...

There is nothing wrong with "moving on" while you're waiting for the coming around--because it CAN take awhile for the coming around to happen. And, ya know, if she's hanging with the gangster wannabes, and that's what she wants for her life right now...whoa, I don't blame you. I know I may sound terribly old-fashioned and maybe just OLD, but I wish that whole gangster thing would go away. There is nothing good about it; there is nothing that can put a good spin on it. It is garbage, and has no redeeming qualities. In my opinion. If she wants to hang with the gangs, I don't even know if I'd want them near my garage because you just never know what they're going to do. OY, Claudia--I don't want to be a downer or a pessimist but, as her Mother, I think that you know when to say enough is enough, and I agree with you. I just wish there was something I could say to make it hurt a little less...but there is nothing that takes away the sting except for her and a change in attitude. Hopefully that will happen but, in the meantime, you still have to live your life. Man, does any of this even make sense? Just know you're not alone...

((((SEVERAL HUGE HUGS)))) LUVYAMUCH!

Carla said...

I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time with your daughter...(((hugs)))

kim-d said...

Hey you~~I just read your comment, and I have to tell you how very much you have helped ME since we've become friends. Really, Claudia, thank you so much for all of your kind words at a time when I have been doubting myself--as a friend, as a person, even. It's not really as bad as it sounds, but since that type of thing doesn't happen to me real often, it's hard when it DOES happen. EVERY DAY, things that you say help me to get beyond that doubt, and I will never, ever forget that. When you said that you discuss me with your older daughter, I felt SO honored--and what she said? Well, what a sweetheart. I'm glad you have her, Claudia. One thing I've learned is this--sometimes we need to give less importance to the ones who make us miserable, and concentrate and pay attention to the ones who are there for us. So many times, the "squeaky wheel" really DOES get the grease, while the quiet, stable ones get overlooked. You and I? We need to pay attention to the non-squeaky ones. Doncha think??? Again, LUVYAMUCH, friend!

Wonderful World of Weiners said...

Keeping you in my thoughts. I'm sorry you have to go through this....

Hallie

tkdchick said...

I think all I can say is big hugs for you!!!!

This is hard but probably for the best for now.