Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I Have to Make a Change!
That's Tootsie up there. She has nothing to do with me needing to make a change. I just like the picture and thought I would share.
As for me making a change, well, that is what I need to do. I have tried in the past and failed. I mean, I am in charge of my life right? Why can't I make myself do what I need to do? Is it down right laziness? Is it fear of success? Is it that I don't know what I think I know to make these changes? It may be all of the above. Or none of it.
What got me to thinking about this now is that I just spent the better part of my day making myself a tunic. It's just a plain ol' shirt, kind of cute...for me. Different than what I normally would wear these days, but what I would like to wear, instead of all the stupid T-shirts I get cheap and then wear out in a year. I made it in a size I figured would be roomy so I could wear it to work and have plenty of movement space. But NO! I finished it except for the hemming and little embellishments I was going to do. I tried it on and Oh HELL no! It is as tight as it can get!
I HAVE to lose weight. I have to get on that bandwagon and take care of myself. I don't know what is going to make me follow through. I do all that imagining how I could look with a few less pounds (who is kidding who here? I need to lose a lot more than a few pounds) I imagine how I will feel when I lose the weight. Maybe that is what is wrong; I can't imagine that far ahead! I am paying for WeightWatcher's online. I know deep down that I MUST lose it. If I am going to be around on this earth for a while I need to lose the weight. All of it. Every last ounce of it.
I do well for a while. You've seen it on my side bar. I lost some weight. Well, people, I put all that back on and then some. I am not giving up the WeightWatcher's online because I want to save the money. I am leaving it there and paying for it until I get my head out of my ass and use it.
Anyone got any suggestions!