Tuesday, May 12, 2009

I Have to Make a Change!

That's Tootsie up there. She has nothing to do with me needing to make a change. I just like the picture and thought I would share.

As for me making a change, well, that is what I need to do. I have tried in the past and failed. I mean, I am in charge of my life right? Why can't I make myself do what I need to do? Is it down right laziness? Is it fear of success? Is it that I don't know what I think I know to make these changes? It may be all of the above. Or none of it.
What got me to thinking about this now is that I just spent the better part of my day making myself a tunic. It's just a plain ol' shirt, kind of cute...for me. Different than what I normally would wear these days, but what I would like to wear, instead of all the stupid T-shirts I get cheap and then wear out in a year. I made it in a size I figured would be roomy so I could wear it to work and have plenty of movement space. But NO! I finished it except for the hemming and little embellishments I was going to do. I tried it on and Oh HELL no! It is as tight as it can get!
I HAVE to lose weight. I have to get on that bandwagon and take care of myself. I don't know what is going to make me follow through. I do all that imagining how I could look with a few less pounds (who is kidding who here? I need to lose a lot more than a few pounds) I imagine how I will feel when I lose the weight. Maybe that is what is wrong; I can't imagine that far ahead! I am paying for WeightWatcher's online. I know deep down that I MUST lose it. If I am going to be around on this earth for a while I need to lose the weight. All of it. Every last ounce of it.
I do well for a while. You've seen it on my side bar. I lost some weight. Well, people, I put all that back on and then some. I am not giving up the WeightWatcher's online because I want to save the money. I am leaving it there and paying for it until I get my head out of my ass and use it.
Anyone got any suggestions!


Wonderful World of Weiners said...

No suggestions just support. When you're truly ready, you'll know. Sounds like you are close to making a decision that will work for you.


Mary Ellen said...

This is the hardest thing ever. I am fighting this battle, too. I'm in the process of forcing myself to exercise for one hour per day, whether it is all at once, or in 15 or 30 minute increments. I know from past experience that if I get myself moving, the rest of it seems easier.

Good luck! We're all here for you.

Niki RuralWritings said...

i'll be looking for suggestions too! don't be toooo hard on yourself :)

Lisa said...

Why is it that we are in a day and age that weight is such an issue. I hate that I have gotten heavy,I HATE it. But at the same time, I don't want to stop my lifestyle. I have just about decided that this grandma is going to be heavy and eat cookies with the grandkids, fix foods that I love, and enjoy the life I have. It seems if I think about losing weight, the more I want to eat.... Good grief!

Stacie's Madness said...

find some friends and do a weekly weigh in together...

I really think my having to weigh in every week kept me on track and accountable.

MOST OF ALL, it's like riding a bike, even if you've fallen off just jump up and get right back on track.

No guilt no regrets.


Debbie said...

I've been really on myself these past few weeks too. I'm getting sick of myself. I know for a fact it's just pure laziness on my part. There is no reason I can't walk every day. None. It's this damn computer.

If I think of any miracles I'll let you know, but otherwise, I'll just give you support. Move.

Coffee Bean said...

We are in the same boat my friend!

Dani - tkdchick said...

Do you think the meetings would help, with the support system you get there. WW online is great but it dosen't work for all.

Also I've known I needed to loose weight for a very long time, once I decided yes, it was time... it still took me months to get to my first meeting.

Its a huge and hard step to take.

When you're ready break it down into small steps... 10% or 5 lbs at a time. Something you can see, and don't set a time deadline its always crushing when you don't make it!

Midwest Mommy said...

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I emailed you yesterday. Please get back to me within the next 24 hours with your mailing address.

Caution Flag said...

Come on, Claudia, you CAN do this. You know you should. You know you probably want to. I am no role model, but I do the support role pretty well. Maybe your weight loss will inspire me? I hope so.

stitcherw said...

Wish I had some good suggestions that worked, then maybe I'd follow through with them too. Good luck with figuring out a program that works for you, it's hard. I really need to lose at least 30 lbs (probably closer to 40) and just don't seem to get there either. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you that you find a program and motivation that works for you.